Knee Deep

I have been spending a lot of time today thinking about what I would post. I like it much better when a post just comes pouring out of my fingertips...but today, it's not so easy. And maybe it's selfish but today I just need your prayers. I have spent the last 10 months of my life running from a situation and God has brought it right back and set it before me. I can hear Him saying "let's deal with this and move on."

But I can't get myself there

I know that it's time, it was time a long while ago, but I am afraid that what I have to do to move passed this seems impossible to my human head and heart. I am being called by my creator to love my enemies and it's an uncomfortable place for me. I have gone from standing on the shore line to about knees in and God is calling me to dive in the rest of the way.

But I can't get myself there

God,

I need you. I know what you are asking me to do and I know it's time but I can't get myself there. Will you come take my hand and walk with me. I know you will and that you have already met me here and I need you to be my guide the rest of the way. Honestly, I am scared and humanly I don't want to love my foe...but if it's your desire for my life and it will please you I am ready to try, I think. Pour your perfect love into my imperfect heart and help me to get there. To love with your love and to please your heart; it's my soul's desire. Ahmen